pain and change

pain is inevitable, we all experience it in various ways

receiving pain is a personal choice how it is felt, I choose to feel it process it as I can, not linger in it as best I can

it has taken quite a while for me to do this, it is a journey understanding pain, it is done one moment at a time

pain led me to photography, a way to seek something outside of me, a different focus point

it worked, it heals, it is possible to step outside of pain if we try, it is not selfish to do this, step away, it is necessary

not all pain is movable when it happens, it takes time, perspective comes with time

understanding I will have moments when tears flood my being, pain is powerful, tears allow what is within to move through

my sweet companion is up in age, she is blind, hard for her to hear me when I call her name, she will only walk outside if I have her on her leash with me by her side, yes, I cry, even with these words I cry, she knows I love her deeply even in my frustration

her name is Chai, she is my best friend

I am trying, smile…Nancy