Owning what I say
listening to my words, spoken, written, speaking each word out loud, is owning what you say
remember this, I need to remember this DAILY
it is how you solidify you, build you within repeating your words to YOU, why wouldn’t you, if you beleve in them so much, offering them to others, why then, would you NOT say each word with intention, why would you NOT say each word each day, why would you NOT UNCLUDE YOU
early morning coffee, thinking, for me this goes hand in hand, listening to what is in my mind, roaming around, curiously peaking my interest, and even peeking through for attention, I listen
coffee cup #2 while brewing I hear words calling out, I grab my journal still on the back porch, I think to self, where will this go, what will be revealed, this time
my sons are grown men, living life, experiencing life, for a while now I have wondered, how have they changed, shifted, grown, moving deeper into their soul, their truth, who are they NOW from where they were as children growing with ideas of life, imagination, dreams of what might be, what are their ideals of life now, their dreams, what has changed for each one, who are these two grown men today, are they happy
my teachings, my words to self, are about growing into ones self, shifting, transforming, opening, acknowledging, honoring what it is one believes, ones truth and yet, I am guilty of holding on to yesterday, memories of what was, time together, favorite times shared, I am realizing more and more being given the gift of age, eyes seeing through deep wisdom, this is the living part the journey of life offers, remembering and moving through each stage, each cycle, with love and respect for what was … my next step, I need to remember, what is was, what is now
if I want to grow and transform and live fully with each breath I am given, I need to be now, I need to be me
to stay in was, holds each of us back, stagnant, stuck in was, blocking forward movement, expansion of our knowing, we are in was until we are not
it is time to cherish and let go of … was, it is now, I am now, different than was, as are my sons, we are growing with each breath we breathe, becoming who we are here to be, we are not was, we are now
letting go is NOT forgetting, it is very different
letting go is allowing was to be integrated into one’s being forever as the loving thread life has woven into the tapestry of ones being, everpresent, always a present to unwrap remembering the love of was
when we are able to do this, when I am able to do this, to allow remembrance without holding, I give freedom to my sons, to be who they are, wherever they are, because I know their love for me is deep, everpresent, my present to unwrap whenever I need to, wherever I am in life, they are part of me
we had heavy rain yesterday, closing out September, October has entered with a lingering blanket of quiet cloud cover, unsure if rain will return, this quiet entry into October for me, is bringing rest, retreat, realigning me with my truths, evergrowing into who I am, this morning is peaceful, writing these words I feel my sons beside me, we are laughing and enjoying our time together
by listening to me, me doing me, I am opening others, my sons, to be who they are now, living in this space becoming the beings they are within, allowing each one to listen to their soul’s direction, I wish them great love, joy, blessings of life to expand brilliantly each moment, each breath they take, transforming their life as life unfolds, I wish you endless love, the love you have given me
I love you Joshua and Jeremiah, the 2 greatest gifts I have ever been blessed to receive, you both teach me something new each day, yes even now I hear you both, ‘Mom, listen to your words, we are here, we love you always’ so too my sons, am I with each of you, forever … I love you
smile … Mom … Nancy
